Just trying to get through another day in this crazy world!
Even though I worked 11 hours today it wasn’t bad. Of course normal bs happening. A few of my employees hate me. During my morning meeting with them, one particular woman rolled her eyes the entire time I was talking. Regardless if you like me or not you’re on the clock you need to pay attention to what I’m (your supervisor) is saying. If she does it tomorrow I’m calling her out and she will hate me more…oh well, such is life.
Went to the doctor today for my checkup after last weeks incident. I was really excited I had lost 5lbs! Yay me!
I’m all better, have a clean bill of health now.
Didn’t get to see Adam today, his daughter had a soccer game. He did call me and talk to me until he got to there, which was awesome. I love hearing his voice, and I love our conversations. I hope I get to see him soon. He just makes my heart smile.
Goodnight my dear tumblr friends.
By the way be expecting some different kind of posts from me…some erotic writings.
With Robin Williams’s death this week, it’s brought back some bad memories. When I was married to my first husband I was very I unhappy, you could probably say I was clinically depressed. I never went to a doctor and was diagnosed but I was very sad, I hated life. Yes I had 2 beautiful children, but that was all I felt I had. I would go to work and all day I would think how can I end it all, end my life? What’s my purpose here? Does anyone even know that I exist? Would anyone know that I was gone? Would anyone miss me? It would be time to drive home I would always take a different route and think I can just hit the gas pedal, close my eyes and and let’s see what happens. Then the tears would start to fall from eyes, so much I couldn’t see to drive. I would pull over, and cry for hours it seemed. One day while I was crying uncontrollably thoughts of my beautiful children flashed before me. Thoughts of their future without me. I couldn’t do that to them. I’m their mother, I’m here to protect them. That was a defying moment for me. I’m not saying it was easy, far from it. I struggled a long time. I was in a very bad place and I hope I never get there again. Not long after that I left my husband, went to the doctor was put on meds for awhile and got better. I have had days that I just have a mini break down. I’ll get in my truck blast my music and just cry, if I’m crying too much I pull over and cry more and cry it out. Hasn’t happened for awhile, very thankful for that.
I know this is very deep, just felt like sharing.
I’ve been really lazy, I finally got out of the house at 3 o’clock. I’m at the library posting this. I don’t currently have a laptop and I wanted to go to my archives and look for an old and re-post it. I’m not sure how to get to my archives though. So I might have to re-write it by memory.
I had such a great night with Adam last night! I hope you guys don’t mind me being all happy and stuff. It’s just been so long since I’ve felt this way and I want to share it. I still have this little bit of doubt that something is going to happen and this all going to go away, I surely hope not. If it does, it will be a long time before I open up to anyone again. I don’t think my heart can handle another heartbreak. I miss him so much when we’re not together wish I could be with him all the time. He told me when he joined OkCupid he wasn’t wanting a relationship till his daughter graduated high school next year. He just wanted to date and hopefully have sex, then he met me, and never imagined that he would feel the way he does about me. That’s not the exact words he used, but that’s the jist of it. As always I will keep you guys updated.
I’m thinking about going home next weekend, a friend of mine has some furniture she is going to give me, plus I haven’t been home in over a month. I miss everyone, especially my daughter.
My mom isn’t in the best of health these days, and that worries me, so I really need to go home more often, even though we’re not close, she’s still my mom.
I went into work yesterday for a few hours and caught up on some things since I wasn’t there most of the week. It was nice being there by myself, put pandora on and just got lost in my work. Wish I could do that everyday. I’m thinking about going back to school, going to do some research and see about loans/financial aid and then decide what I would like to go to school for. I like my job most days but I want a career not just a job. Any ideas or advice will be greatly appreciated.
Hope everyone is doing well and had a super weekend!
Did go on a date with Adam. We had such a great time. We were trying to take a selfie while we were waiting for a table and this nice woman comes by and asked if we would like for her to take a pic of us, so we told her of course. I have this red eye thing going on in my eye, I tried to filter it, but wouldn’t take it out. It was so great just being with him, he really makes me happy. We went to a movie after dinner, came back to my place for awhile. He told me before he left that he was smitten by me. Not sure if anyone has ever told me that before.
Have a date with Adam tonight. I guess you could say this is our first official date. I’m super excited! Maybe I shouldn’t get my hopes up until I’m actually in his car….you know because that’s how my luck goes. He’ll break down (even though he drives Mercedes Benz) or his daughter will call and need something. Send me good vibes please! I hope everyone is having a great weekend.
So as some of you may know I live in Louisville, Ky, and know about the rumor about Purge tonight. I will say I’m a little scared since I’m by myself. I don’t plan on going out anywhere, or answering my door. The only person that comes to see me is Adam. It would be nice to have him here or I be there at his place with him. Anyway I’m going to try and not worry about it. I just think people are idiots. If you do something illegal you’re going to jail….PERIOD!!!
Hi there! You’re very welcome. I look forward to getting to know you as well. Hope you’re having a great day/night, not sure of the time difference.
My last day off work from my sick leave. I woke up feeling great today. I made breakfast, first day I’ve really felt like eating anything yay! I haven’t been able to run this week either, I miss it. I may try to attempt it this evening. Almost afraid to push myself to much though, I don’t want to have a set back.
Adam is coming by to see me after work today, I’m excited to see him. Things are going well with him and I. I’m trying not to over think things and not to
push certain issues, such as going to his place, meeting his kids, going out. I know he’s busy, so just going to enjoy what it is right now. He’s good to me and makes me happy when he’s around, and when he calls and says, “Good morning beautiful.” It’s the little things that mean the most.
GOPYW - feeling some better. Still a little sick to my stomach but not as much pain in my back. I go back to work Friday. I had to go in today to fill out some insurance papers since we are switching over to the new company at the end of the month. Starting having pain in my back while I was driving, I hope that goes away by Friday.