I’m looking to trade my truck in. Don’t get me wrong I love my truck but it’s not the greatest in the winter and it’s the gas mileage is the worst….14 miles to the gallon!! Plus I’m getting ready to have a grandbaby and it’s my truck isn’t feasible to have a car seat in. Wish me luck that I can find something I can afford.

Got to see my best friend, Karen today. I miss her so much.
Also went with my daughter for her ultrasound today. She’s having a boy!They weren’t 100 % sure because he was being lazy and wouldn’t move and open his legs. They’re going to do another one in 4 weeks just to make sure. I cried as soon as I seen the baby on the screen. It was just this overwhelming feeling I can’t even explain. I can’t even imagine how I’m going to be when she has him. I can’t wait to hold him.

Work was horrible today. I had my lead go to my boss because I talked to her about her 10 errors on Friday and I told her that was unacceptable. She told my boss that she felt rushed because she didn’t want to get overtime and that I was having her come in early because we’re short a person. He told first of all that’s no excuse for that many errors and your role as a lead is to cover where needed. And if you have an issue you need to talk to Kim and she told him that Kim is too overwhelmed. Seriously!?! I don’t know if she wants my job or what? I have news for her she couldn’t handle it. My boss would have her fired within a week. Then she said she was sick and was leaving but she would finish part of her section. Then she asked me if she would get a point? Yes ma’am you will. She changed her tune real fast. I’m still worried about taking off Wednesday. I know I shouldn’t be, it’s just a job.

On a different note I wanted to run today but it looked like rain, so I decided to stay in and read. Just relaxing this evening, and unwinding from a crazy day at work.

Can’t sleep! So here’s some here’s how my weekend went. Friday I didn’t do anything, I pretty much slept…I think anyway. Saturday I slept till 10:30 or so got up made breakfast didn’t have any coffee so that sucked. I cleaned my apartment, then my son called from California, I laid on the bed and talked to him for awhile after I got off the phone I fell asleep for 2 hours! I had planned on going to run. I got up got my running clothes on went to the park tried to run, and my knee was not having it so I just walked. It started to get dark I was getting worried I wasn’t going to make it back to my truck before dark. Where I walk is kinda secluded and there weren’t very many people out. Thank goodness I made it though. On my way home had the scare of my life! This little boy runs out in front of me and I had to slam on my brakes thank goodness I was only going 25mph if not I would’ve hit him. His mom was on the other side of the road and she said thank you to me and and I told her no problem I always try to look. After I pulled away I lost it. I had to park and I started crying, and shaking like crazy. I kept thinking what if I had hit him? I couldn’t have lived with myself. It took my awhile to get myself together. 
I rented a couple of movies, only watch one Saturday night which was “The Other Woman” I could totally relate to that movie on so many levels. 

Today was a good day. I went to church with my guy friend, Tim. We went to lunch and talked. We are taking things slow, which I’m not used to but I think it’s good. He’s a sweet guy. He told me he’s looking for “the one” and doesn’t want to just go out here and have sex. That made me like him even more. Don’t get me wrong I’m very attracted to him and he says he is me too but he wants to this right. So we will see how this progresses. 

This has turned into a very long post so I’ll stop rambling. Hope everyone has a wonderful night.

Can’t sleep! So here’s some here’s how my weekend went. Friday I didn’t do anything, I pretty much slept…I think anyway. Saturday I slept till 10:30 or so got up made breakfast didn’t have any coffee so that sucked. I cleaned my apartment, then my son called from California, I laid on the bed and talked to him for awhile after I got off the phone I fell asleep for 2 hours! I had planned on going to run. I got up got my running clothes on went to the park tried to run, and my knee was not having it so I just walked. It started to get dark I was getting worried I wasn’t going to make it back to my truck before dark. Where I walk is kinda secluded and there weren’t very many people out. Thank goodness I made it though. On my way home had the scare of my life! This little boy runs out in front of me and I had to slam on my brakes thank goodness I was only going 25mph if not I would’ve hit him. His mom was on the other side of the road and she said thank you to me and and I told her no problem I always try to look. After I pulled away I lost it. I had to park and I started crying, and shaking like crazy. I kept thinking what if I had hit him? I couldn’t have lived with myself. It took my awhile to get myself together.
I rented a couple of movies, only watch one Saturday night which was “The Other Woman” I could totally relate to that movie on so many levels.

Today was a good day. I went to church with my guy friend, Tim. We went to lunch and talked. We are taking things slow, which I’m not used to but I think it’s good. He’s a sweet guy. He told me he’s looking for “the one” and doesn’t want to just go out here and have sex. That made me like him even more. Don’t get me wrong I’m very attracted to him and he says he is me too but he wants to this right. So we will see how this progresses.

This has turned into a very long post so I’ll stop rambling. Hope everyone has a wonderful night.

It was just another typical day at the office. I was waiting for lunch time to come around. I didn’t have a car so I had to walk to lunch. I would walk past this tire shop everyday, and I would always get the cat calls and whistles. I was a little shy at 18 yrs old so I would just smile, and blush a little and keep walking. Today was different, one guy asked me to come over there and talk to them, so I did. They told me I was very pretty and I looked sweet. I was flattered but still acting a little shy. I felt like a little school girl. I noticed one guy standing in the corner. He had long curly brown hair with a tint of blond in it. He had a bread, kinda rough looking but at the same time very handsome. He kept smiling at me. I would smile back. One of the other guys noticed and asked him to come over and meet me. He introduced himself as Hank, and shook my hand. He was still smiling, and then he says, “Can I say something?” I said, “sure.” He said, “I’ve noticed you walking by here for months now and I want to say you have the sexiest feet I’ve ever seen.” I said, “really, I’ve never been told that.” He said, “well it’s true, love when you wear a dress and high heels.” I started blushing. Then he asked if we could talk alone. I said, “ok.” He took my hand abs we went it the corner of the shop. We talked a few minutes, then he starts gently stroking my hair, then my cheek. He then kisses me. I was a little scared but at the same time I wasn’t. His kiss was amazing! Then he asked if I wanted to go in the storage room? I did. We were kissing so passionately, then he turns me around lifts my dress up, pulls my panties down. He asked if I wanted him because he has wanted me for months. As I’m breathing heavily I say yes! He then slides his finger into my wet vagina, and I moan a little. He asked if I wanted more? I said yes. He grabs my hand and he already has himself erect. I stroke it for a few minutes as I’m doing that I’m getting more excited. He then gently pulls my hair and thrusts inside me. He says to me that I feel so good and tight. I wanted to speak but I was breathing to heavy and wanted more. He tells me he’s getting ready to cum, he pulls out and cums on my ass. Afterwards he turns me around and held me in his arms and kisses me on the forehead and says, “thank you”. I then said, “I need to get back to work, hope to see you again.” He smiled and said, “I hope so too, bye sexy” I opened the door and the other guys were all smiles. I said bye to them and went back to work.
Hank had disappeared, I never seen him again after that afternoon. Sometimes I would ask myself was he real? Or did I imagine him and that wonderful 30 minutes of great sex?

I know I didn’t stay away long, just needed to clear my head a little. I’ve decided to do what makes me happy. Not going to do things that I feel I have to in order for people to like me. I’ve made some changes and plan on sticking to them. This is my life, going to make sure I’m happy. If someone doesn’t like it well they can walk away, and I’ll be ok with that. I’m not going to worry about finding “the one” I’m going to let him find me. Don’t get me wrong of course I get lonely but that’s why I’m doing other things to help me get past that lonely feeling.

Today I’m going to clean my apartment, turn my music on, and dance around the house. Then I’m going to go run the weather is perfect here today. 57 degrees now, going to be 66!

I hope everyone has an awesome Saturday!

Look what I got in the mail from little-angry-girl. This totally made my day. As you can see I didn’t deactivate, haven’t had access to a computer to do it. Now I’m thinking I’m going to stay. This may sound weird but I enjoy seeing what goes on in your lives. There is highs and lows but we are all there for each other to give our support and love. It’s amazing how you can feel so connected to people here. I’ve only met one person and hopefully one day I will meet more. Thanks guys for being so kind and the sweet messages I received . You guys are the best! ((Hugs))

Look what I got in the mail from little-angry-girl. This totally made my day. As you can see I didn’t deactivate, haven’t had access to a computer to do it. Now I’m thinking I’m going to stay. This may sound weird but I enjoy seeing what goes on in your lives. There is highs and lows but we are all there for each other to give our support and love. It’s amazing how you can feel so connected to people here. I’ve only met one person and hopefully one day I will meet more. Thanks guys for being so kind and the sweet messages I received . You guys are the best! ((Hugs))

Just want everyone know that I’m deactivating my tumblr. Been doing some thinking and I need to focus on me and loving myself. I don’t like who I’ve become. I’ve always do things because I want people to like me. Have made the decision not to do that anymore. If I think it’s wrong or doesn’t make me happy it’s not worth it. If someone doesn’t like that they can move on. I don’t want or need people like that in my life. Some may say it’s a little much to deactivate but I feel it’s the right thing to do. If you guy want to keep in contact and have Kik you can add me…same name as here.

Thanks for always supporting me it has helped me more times than you’ll ever know.

. I will keep it for a couple of days.
Back to blonde! I feel like myself again. I will never do that again.

Back to blonde! I feel like myself again. I will never do that again.

Just found out that my 14yr old nephew is in Kidney failure in Nebraska. They have started him on dialysis and will be putting him on the donor list. They are not discussing possible family members donating yet, they are focusing on getting him stable first. Please say a prayer for him.